tonight will be my fourth day of not smoking. I bought an e-cig. It’s okay. Finally walked the dog today after taking almost a week off. It felt awesome. Have so much to clean and do.
Seeing someone from my past again. Is it too soon to begin Valentine’s Day gifts? Think i shall make him cookies, a kaleidascope and maybe some hemp necklace. Hemp is not my first choice but that’s what he’s into…pinche hippies.
Time to get ready for work.
Love this song…so much that I had to find it on vinyl.
Zager Evans - In The Year 2525
This is one of my go-to karaoke songs. It was literally way ahead of its time when it came out, so no one has ever heard it, but it is amazing, and… most importantly, I have never found a karaoke DJ that didn’t have it on tap.
So i’ve been chilling in Seattle for about two weeks now. As my time here in the city comes to an end, i feel both happy and sad. This place, Capital Hill, is pretty awesome but i can’t see myself living here yet. I am not a full-fledged hipster. hahahaha. But seriously this place is cool. Don’t get me started on the dudes. So many dudes to be ogled here. I am predicting that i will feel weird upon my return to the Burque. It just cannot compare. Big vs. Small…who will win? For now small. I still have a few small town boys to harass before moving to the big city. Coffee shop guy will have had a months break from me so hopefully his heart is growing fonder of me as i type. Delusional much? Yes.
I need to take way more pictures. I get nervous though. I feel like such a tourist when i bust out the camera. Fuck it. I’m walking to the waterfront in a bit so i’ll take pictures down there. I may hit up SAM to check out the warhol exhibit. There’s also a film festival going on. Maybe most importantly, there is a man. Met this said man at a party last weekend. We got to talking and bada bing bada boom….we’s hooking up. Yes, we is..hahaha. Anywho, this is what good sex does to you, makes you silly.
There are so many tight pants up here. fucking hipsters. just kidding. i’m trying to decrease the hating. I have until tues/wed. next week to enjoy seattle because then it’s off to Tacoma. This weekend holds great potential if i can only force myself to go out and about by myself and explore.
Ooohhhh, now i remember what prompted me to update this tumblr. I check my mail and see that someone has sent me a message on okcupid. Yes, I stoop to that level of internet dating. I like to think about it more at internet stalking. Living in a small town almost guarantees that at some point or another you will run into these people who before were only hastily written profiles and 5 year old pictures. Anywho, i like signing in to see who has been checking out my profile, which is excellent by the way. Who does not like a girl who loves talking about poop? So i sign in and check it out and see that the ex of an ex of a guy i used to hang out with has checked me out. Mind you i had already seen him about town and thought to myself, “hey, that’s the fool who used to date that girl that the guy i used to hang out with was hung up on.” Just the idea of having anything to do with that disgusts me. No thank you. I am not a fan of people who are always in one relationship or another. What does this say about you? Then again what do people say about people who have never been in serious relationships? I’d like to think that the perpetually single are saner. I still go out and get mine I just skip all the unnecessary waste of time. Okay so i’m still mixed up about dudes but i genuinely enjoy being single. In conclusion, ABQ is a small ass town and it needs new blood. New cute blood. More cute dudes please. I will petition the city for this when i get back.
I’m beginning to worry that the coffee shop guy is getting less attractive as time goes by. Last time i saw him he had some sort of bangs mishap. It looked a bit girlish. Whatevs….i still have an in with him. Second to last time i saw him i surprised him while he was smoking a joint. Poor dude got all scared. I got all excited. I shall work on my approach. It will involve weed.
Neil Young
Without Rings
this is the perfect song to be sad to right now. internet boy is out. it ended so abruptly. i listen to this song and wallow a bit but in the end all i can say is, “fuck him.” for reals. f-him.
friends say he was crazy anyway but i still can’t help but miss him at times. according to my friend, these are his cons:
balding
30
virgin
chubby
douche
…. and you think to yourself, “Really? Her? on tumblr?” then you read the caption and the bitch is like, “OMG I love her makeup!”
so true
I talk to a guy on the internet. I “met” him on CL. He posted an Alkaline Trio song and I responded in kind. This began late January so it’s been a little over a month that we talk now. I still have not met this guy. I’ve only seen two sort-of-okay pictures of him. Why am i tripping over this guy?
So, the list. He has made a list of the things i should stop. Yes. He took it upon himself to tell me what i need to change. Why does he have to bring up this list every time we talk? Homeboy may be starting to get on my nerves. I haven’t met him yet. WTF??
I shouldn’t feel so bad though because apparently he too is stopping some of the things on the list he made for me. He is no longer drinking or masturbating. For reals? Why do you tell me you’re doing it for me…what does that mean…do you like like me or are we just friends. I don’t like asking these questions. They are known to bring things to a screeching halt.
